Posts made in August, 2010

Which way to 39?

Posted by Karin on Aug 25, 2010 in Bigger Picture | 0 comments

I’m 39 today. Thirty-nine. THIRTY-NINE. 39. Doesn’t matter how I write it, it looks old in every format. 39. As if there is some magic wisdom or status or importance that comes with it. Thirty + nine.

Thirty-nine. Damn.

I remember when 37 arrived. I panicked. Ditto for 38.

Now at 39, well… I’m kind of quiet. It’s the last shot at the 30s. I always viewed the 30s as the decade of energy, resilience, fertility, a young family, joy, going out and doing. My 30s turned out much differently from that. I had very little of most of that for most of the decade. Maybe a smidge in the early part, but remarkably little even then. And now, I’m 39, and I can’t go back. I can’t get a do-over. I’m stuck with a laundry list of crap with checkmarks next to it. The pang of disappointment is palpable. And deep.

Project “Back To Health”

Posted by Karin on Aug 9, 2010 in Health | 0 comments